2005-12-07 - 12:41 a.m.
Fall Semester Redux
It's been awhile... insert Staind snippet here. I miss writing here, but I have had a hectic semester and spent most of my time at school or at mock trial practice, or drinking beer at the magic compound, or sleeping. mmm sleeping, best invention ever.
So, updates: mock trial - we got screwed. I was a very good witness, thank you. My teammates, Will and Eden, got 4 votes for best advocate between them, out of a possible 6 in 2 rounds. So, we rocked. However, at the end of the day we were in a 4 way tie for second, then on a tiebreakers two-way tie for 4th, and then on actual points given over the two rounds we lost out by 30 out of a possible 600 points. THen the team we beat first round won the whole thing over our second round opponent. No bonuses for matching up against the best competition. Anyway, it was all random and more drama based than legal based and our exhibit fell down like three times the last round :(.
Uh... so lots of mock trial went on this semester. I got credit for it at least, I didn't know that I would going into it. So, it's like I had 18hours this semester. I will remind myself of that when grades come out.
the week before mock trial I turned in a short story as the final grade for Law & Lit. Who knows how that will go.
the day after mock trial, well I got blitzed and woke up and went to cracker barrel with the team. then i visited my grandparents in their new patio home. and my cousins and my baby cousin dropped by and we palyed with rocks in and dirt in the new construction next door. yay for rocks.
the next day, I went to sleep at 3 and woke up at 11 for my final for Trial Practice at 1pm. We did a self defense case, I was on the defense and did the closign and direct of the defendant. Shrug. In the real world a guy who was getting robbed in a drug deal shot two white boys and got first degree manslaughter instead of murder 1, 30 yrs. I think our facts were better, but our fake jurors told me they would ahve gone with second degree manslaughter. I guess it's hard to really get not guilty. Anyway...
I had a final in workers comp last tuesday and a final in secured transactions yesterday I studied for both prolyl a total of 20 hours. Mostly for WC even tho I didn't really need to. Anyway, I expect Bs of some sort. We'll see. A's would be nice, but ya know, it's tough.
Today I had a dream about a world with centaurs and talking mice, and I was helping the centaurs in a war between horses and centaurs vs humans. THe talking mouse gave me a sword and a balloon. And the centaurs were led by a giant lion headed creature named lothar or something like that. Loatha. I dunno. It was a dream.
Later I got in a huge fight with my brother. Mostly cause he is graduating, and he wants to compare everything he does to me. Which is great cause I set a really low standard. I mean I am at home and between undergrad and now I worked minimum wage jobs irregularly and went on a 5 month "vacation" wherein I gained 20 pounds slept past noon everyday and watched porn 24-7, then gto sexually assaulted and came home. Whoot. He jsut thinks I was on vacation. But anyway... jsut cause I did it doesn't justify his getting to blame his behavior on me. And he yelled at my mom, which is intolerable and super-frustrating. She orders us around a lot, but i figure that's what mothers do. And it's not like they are bad orders, they are useful orders - like help put the groceries in the fridge so I can make you supersweet lasagna later - type orders. And he thinks since she reiterd she hasn't done anything. which is also bullshit. She broke her pinky and may have to have a second surgery on it, so she as limited. But she went to pt, went to the ER with my grandmother several times, volunteered with church stuff, baked for people, put on thanksgiving. Anyway.. she does stuff, he sleeps in. I basically hate my brother. He is not a good person right now. He doesnt like appreciate anything he has been given, he just expects more and expects to be rich and be like the people on MTV with the escalades and rims and crap. THat's his definition of success bascially. He doesn't understand that getting people to pay for college for 7 years and pay for rent and pay for food (which he turns down for mcdonalds) and pay for healthcare and pay for a car and insurance and so on and so on is way more than most people get. Way way more. And he thinks he has been underserved. He thinks he had a bad childhood because people made him feel bad for not being as academically successful as me. I think, or maybe just because he didn't get everything he wants. I just don't understand how we have the same genes and the same parents and completely different outlooks on life and what it can be.
anyway, thinking how much my bro sucks reminds me how much I have not done as far as the things that I think make someone successful. I'm not helping anyone. I'm just getting by in school and hoping to get a job and make some money. I have been neglecting my friends. I dont have a boyfriend or even a best friend that I can liek share stuff with. And I will not be the first to produce grandkids; I'll take bets on that. I haven't left Kentucky in at least a year. That's just terrible. Southern Indiana does nto count. I have a lot to do I guess. I'm fairly happy, which is amazing. I mean I should be, my life is a breeze, even the hard stuff is just hard stuff I signed myself up for.
So. THings to do this year:
1. make a meaningful contribution to my community -> volunteer, donate money, coordinate something, vote, do something.
2. find a job alternative to the pd's office just in case.
3. hook up with friends over break regardless of work schedule
4. read for school. :P
yeah. stuff. oh and i suck at magic. altho I made t4 of this dinky tournament in town and people wanted a decklist, and I was just like ,are you insane, my deck was awful. I would have felt better if I didn't make t4 with 3 members of the same team, one of which was just blocking for the other two, and then I had a mulligan to 5 - no land, double elf and ripped forest, but my opponent had double slay. ridiculous.
later
luck
Fall Semester Redux -12:41 a.m. 2005-12-07
lrs fest/mock trial -10:54 p.m. 2005-09-15
mental n.o. -12:16 a.m. 2005-09-07
personality like a porcupine -11:34 p.m. 2005-08-29
DV/EPO -11:09 p.m. 2005-08-29
